i'm so depressed...

[§Haily§]

Here's the thing,I'm not sure if it is depression but I wrote this note to my ex.Not really a love note it just says how I feel about him and no matter what,i'm here for him.Well,his girl friend got a hold of it and she got extriemly mad.The note was really personal.I didn't mean for my world to go upside down so quickly.When she got the note and after she read every word I wrote, she passed it around to the whole...entire...class.Not like my life has fallen already now I have to deal with the embarresment! I swear,every kid that even mentioned the note in the hallway I was really close to hitting them so hard they would faint.But my friends held me back for my saftey and the kid's.

I want to hide in my own special place forever.This is soooo stupid.Now friends are brakeing up,blaming one another on what happened and who's fault it is.Megan,thank God for her,that she took the note and shredded it when the note got to her.She already knew what it said and she didn't want to whole entire school to get it.Yeah,Megan's one of the few people who stood by me while everyone giggled at me in the hallway.If I didn't have her and/or my friends,I would of slapped so many people silly already.

In this school now,there's three camps: Megan's and my friends all live in one.My ex's girl friend in another with my ex. And everyone else.Where am I? I'm in the middle. I tryed to befriend everyone so I'm pulled around like tug o' war.After the day was over,I just slept for two hours straight and I really needed that. This is sooo stupid.i told you,if I EVER make a book about my life,it would win the most dramatic book of the year and I wouldn't know if that's a good thing or bad.All i know it would get SOME kind of reward.


*sigh* life is difficult.I mean,I wouldn't kill myself because a lot of people have it a lot worse then me.Also,suicide is a sin.And i don't have the guts to do it. Tina,I wish I can still act like a kid while I am still one,and I am only fourteen and this crap is already starting! Middle school sucks.I want high school to come around when everyone matures up. Maybe I should go...I don't know, tipi a guy's house to make me feel better and make me feel like my own age. Psshhh,whatever.All I know is that the jelous girl friend is out to get me and a lot of people have been through this before.... I think....

[Sarie]

I'm really sorry. That must have been tough all day!

My best friend always says this when she's depressed: "I've hit rock bottom. No where to go but up."

(((HUG))) if it helps.

[Tina ☺]

I typed this whole thing out and this stupid board lost it! I'm not doing it again right now, so for now, I'll just give you a *HUG*.

[§Haily§]

Thanks!!! *Hug* back.I'm doing a lot better since the nap i got.Tomorrow is a better day i bet. And i hope.

Well,I talked to my ex's girl friend,and from her point of view(i thought it was the best way to get answers) that she didn't pass around the note.She said that she gave it to Maddie(one of my best friends so i'm ok if she got the note) and Maddie gave it to Magen to tear up. See,I was i math class when all of this happened so i don't know the truth(i'm usually the one who answers people problems and give them advice.Now,i'm the one who needs it the most.) A teacher told me today that Feelings is only being human,and i guess i'm the most human there is to being human being because i have A LOT of feelings now!

Anyway,Sarie.I love that bit of advice.I am looking up and I am going to go forward,whether i want to or not. I'm going to see where life takes me and go along with it,whether i like it or not.

My best friend gave me a big speech which is like this:

If there wasn't a word like Gossip,it wouldn't be around.
If there wasn't a word like Hate,there would be more love.
If there wasn't a word like rumer,people would get along.
If there was only Love,trust,and friendship the world would be a better place.People would trust one another,people would love one another,and people would be friends with one another.If people loved each other like you and me,people would be much happier and better off in their lives.But if you're a strong person,which I know you are,then you can spread the love,the trust,and the friendship if you try.All it takes is a little understanding and a big red heart.

I cried when she gave this info to me.It was touching.

[lilyflower]

I'm so sorry this happened to you Haily! -Hugs- If you need any help or guidance, you can PM me because I've been through stuff like this before and maybe I can help. But just remember, things always get better. It may get worse, but it will eventually get better and people will forget. As long as you have friends who truly care about you, then be happy and ignore everything else! (And making a simself of those who you are mad at and Sateillitedeathing them helps too. Hey it's a Sims 2 forum, I have to make some reference! )

[§Haily§]

thanks Lily!! *hug*

i hoped that someone could relate.that's why i posted this thread so people can open up and trust ME. I'm getting answer.I'm getting little,but i'm still getting answers!

[§Haily§]

This is random but when i was reading my refridgerator's stickers,one said that Money talkes...but only to say good-bye.

[lilyflower]

Well a lot of guys at my school make fun of me because I'm the kind of person who isn't so "Mainstream". I needed to get used to being taunted and harrased by the popular kids and it isn't fun, even when I'm "Adjusted, cough, cough". But I have my friends and that's all I really need right now

[lilyflower]

-Awards Haily the randomness award-

Niceness. What about this bumper sticker that I saw that said "Jesus loves you but I'm his favorite?" I'm not even Christian LOL!

[§Haily§]

HA Ha!! Hear this!!!

Arms are for hugging
Boys are for kssing
mean girls are for dissing
and best friends are there when the boy is kissing the mean girl and all you really need is a hug

[§Haily§]

I'm Christian.That's cute though!

[Nicole]

Egh, school is mean. Plain and simple.

ACTUALLY, girls are the mean ones, they go right for where it hurts most inside. Trust me, been there, done that, not going back.

[§Haily§]

I learned that lesson yesturday and i'm terrified to go back to school in another ten minutes!

Thanks for the understandment,Nicole

[joandsarah]

Here's a big hug Hope you get through the day ok. School, especially at 14 is a very tough time. Ugg I remember it all too well.

[Tina ☺]

It'll be alright, Haily. All that nonsense will blow over soon and the kids will move on to something else.